Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Shopping for cat collar
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Deciphering Dream: Part 2
Three
Three signifies life, vitality, inner strength, completion, imagination, creativity, energy, self-exploration and experience. Three stands for a trilogy, as in the past, present, and future or father, mother, and child or body, mind, and soul, etc.Dream of the number three may be telling you that the third time is the charm.
Oh-my-god, this is scary. I am constantly exploring myself trying to understand my needs and wants. More like quest to find out what I want to end up with- I mean career wise. I'm constantly making plan. from A - Z and I stuck with too many options and constantly think of contingency (career) plans. Yes, I always reflect my past, constantly making plan for future in present time. Sometime I think too much and I don't what I had in front of me for the time being.
Naked
To see a naked person in your dream and you are disgusted by it, represents some anxiety about discovering the naked truth about that person or situation. It may also foretell of an illicit love affair, a loss of prestige or some scandalous activity. On the other hand, if you are accepting of someone else's nudity, then it implies that you can see right through them and their intentions. Or perhaps, you are completely accepting them for who they are. If you do not care about someone else's nudity, then it suggests that you need to learn not to be afraid of rejection.
I was disgusted by the nudity neither I like it. I didn't see any private parts. But I knew they were but naked. In this case, nudity for kids is acceptable. My nephews and niece running around naked at home. Before and after shower of course. Back to this keyword meaning, I do have the ability to see through people something that just came to me since I was in high school. I'm pretty good with judging character even though I knew they had ulterior motives or "wanting benefit", it didn't bother me much because I became very mindful. But it kills me if my friend is falling in love with an asshole. I can't tell her he's an asshole or she's a whore. I don't want to be unhappy. I usually let them be happy BUT when things turn to shit, I'd say, you know what I knew he was blahlalal.
I agree, I accept people for who they are. Because I tried and did opened up my heart to someone who totally out of my ideal.
Boy
If you are an adult male and dream that you see or are a boy, then it suggests your playful, innocent, childlike nature. Alternatively, it can symbolize the immature aspects of yourself that still needs to grow. Your inner child may be trying to draw your attention to parts of yourself that you need to recognize and acknowledge.
If my sister read this bit, she will definitely nod her head like a japanese parrot! She would agree with this. I am very childish. Personality wise. Not my mentality. Perhaps this dream trying to draw my attention to what I like to do when I was a kid and pursue that.When I was a kid, my best time was from 4 days old till the last day I stayed with my adopted mum (9 year-old). That was where all the fun happened. I had a real childhood back then. Riding my old chopper bike everywhere carrying my three other friends on it. That was when I fancied my late aunt Kuih Sarang Semut. But ambition wise at that time, I wanted to be a fireman.
If the dream telling me to be that, I don't think so. That's not going to happen. But wait a minute, isn't it pretty obvious, I should do something with Sarang Semut. I'm good at it. Every year people were asking me about it and I've been thinking about it as well. I mean to commercialise it- one way for me to stay in Tanjong Karang looking after my parent and my cat.
Shower
To dream that you are showering with someone, suggests that there is something that you need to "come clean" or confess to this person. It is time to be honest. Perhaps the dream is telling you that you need to let down your guard. If you are showering with a group of people, then it means that you are feeling exposed. You feel that your sense of privacy is being invaded.
I'm not sure who should I come clean with. Maybe the time will tell who that person will be. Maybe it means being straight forward? You think?
Black
Black symbolizes the unknown, the unconscious, danger, mystery, darkness, death, mourning, rejection, hate or malice. The color invites you to delve deeper in your unconscious in order to gain a better understanding of yourself. It also signifies a lack of love and lack of support.More positively, black represents potential and possibilities. It is like a clean or blank slate.
This intrigued me. Very. I do afraid of the unknown and that explain why I had so many plans. I just to be prepared. Knowing what to do next. Another reason why I want to come back- my parent. Mum is 60 and dad in approaching 70. We all know life expectancy isn't that high in Malaysia. Somehow my stupid brain went to the extend worrying me what will happen if they die when I'm in Auckland. Okay, I had this series of history of not being able to attend funeral. From my aunts, my uncles, my grandparent, to even my my best friend. There would always be a certain thing that stop me from seeing them from the last time. Like bad traffic. Bus. Exam. So I don't want to miss my parent's funeral. I wanted to be there. I want to hear their last breathe. I want to urus their jenazah. So this unknown thing really kill me. Auckland and Kuala Lumpur is 12 hours away. No way for my family members to keep their body just for me. I don't think I can forgive myself if I'm not there.
As what it suggests-
to delve deeper in your unconscious in order to gain a better understanding of yourself. I don't think I'm going to do that. My head already broken while searching my soul. Don't let me think deeper. But I agree that I am lack of love and support in here. I pretty much by myself here. No social support like those in Malaysia. Most things I just suck it up. I kept too much to myself in here. It drives me nuts. I do hope black to bring opportunity for me in Malaysia. Give me big break.
Face
To dream that you are washing your face, suggests that you need to come clean about some matter.
Again, coming clean. Didn't I entitle to some secret just between me and myself?
Conclusion.
It's pretty obvious that I've been thinking about (returning to) Malaysia too much. Conscious and subconsciously. Some says dream is mainan tidur but I don't care if this dream is a game my brain played with me to reassure me that it is fine to return to where I belong. I like it. Everyone need some level of assurance in our life. Some people might ask their friend, am I looking fat in this black shirt. Some might ask, should I eat Burger King. We ask even though we know what we are or what we want. As for me who can I ask?
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Deciphering Dreams: Part 1
Sister
To see your sister in your dream, symbolizes some aspect of your relationship with her, whether it one of sibling rivalry, nurturance, protectiveness, etc. Your sister may draw attention to your family role. Or the dream may also serve to remind you that someone in your waking life has characteristics similar to your sister. Alternatively, your sister may be a metaphor for a nun. In this case, she may represent some spiritual issues.
Mother
To see your mother in your dream, represents the nurturing aspect of your own character. Mothers offer shelter, comfort, life, guidance and protection. Some people may have problems freeing themselves from their mothers and are thus seeking their own individuality and development.
To dream that you are having a conversation with your mother, denotes a matter that has preoccupied your mind and you are not sure how to deal with it in your waking life. It indicates unresolved problems that need to be worked out with your mother.
To hear your mother call you in our dream, suggests that you have been negligent in your duties and responsibilities. You are pursuing down the wrong path
Eating
To dream that you are eating alone, signifies loss, loneliness, and depression. You may feel rejected, excluded, and cut off from social/family ties. Eating may be a replacement for companionship and provide a form of comfort. Alternatively, eating alone reflects independent needs. Also consider the pun, "what's eating you up?" in reference to anxiety that you may be feeling.
To dream that you are eating with others, signifies harmony, intimacy, merriness, prosperous undertakings, personal gain, and/or joyous spirits.
To dream that you are overeating or not eating enough, signifies a lack of spirituality and fulfillment in your waking life. Food can represent love, friendship, ambition, sex or pleasure in your life. Thus, food is a metaphor to fulfill and gratify your hunger for love and desires. If you are refusing to eat, then it indicates that you want to be more independent and not rely on others so much. If you dream that you are a picky eater, than it indicates that you are holding back something.If you are currently dieting in your waking life, then the dream may serve to compensate for the sustenance that you are lacking.
To dream that someone clears away the food before you finish eating, foretells that you will have problems and issues from those beneath you or dependent upon you.
Restaurant
To dream that you are in a restaurant, suggests that you are feeling overwhelmed by decisions and choices that you need to make in your life. Alternatively, it indicates that you are seeking for emotional nourishment outside of your social support system.
My Interpretation.
I did played a central role in the family when I was in Malaysia. I see myself like a router that connect several pc in the networking system. I seriously in need of guidance of an elder, I became lost each day not religiously but for the past several years despite what I had achieved in life I feel like I had no anchor. I live in New Zealand but I don't feel belong here and when I home for 8 months also I felt didn't belong there. It was an inner struggling that I tried to brush it off but it still bug me everyday. So the past few year there's this urge in me to settle in one place or one country, I don't want to go everywhere but gets me nowhere! Then when I decided to not renewing my stay in here (New Zealand) any longer, I felt more lost. Doubting myself will this be a best decision I ever made or will it (my return) be the biggest flop of my life. Thus, I seriously need guidance. Too late to do solat istikharah as I'm very determine to go home.
The dream interpretation of eating with other somehow give me a clear indication that I am about to make a right decision. I love the harmony in my family and close and intimate we are. One of the reason I go home because my parent are getting older and I want to be there for them. It's about time for me to repay them. Time for us to be family again, the complete six.
The meaning of restaurant sum it all, the personal struggle I have to face everyday. From career choice to everything, the need to decide poke me from all angles like facebook poke who have to click individually to poke back. Indeed I'm seeking emotional nourishment outside my social network in New Zealand- the quest that soon bring me back to Malaysia.
It was so clear why I had dream, I've been thinking about Malaysia in my subconscious mind