Deciphering Dreams: Part 1

On Sunday, the nation turn their clock an hour behind to save the daylight. Basically we gain extra hour. Means I had 25 hours a-day on Sunday to made the lost of one hour during the summer daylight saving. Anyway, this adjustment of time didn't really adjust my biological clock. Somehow it disrupt my whole bodywork. For example, in the morning I thought it was 10:30am but it was actually 9:30am, the light, the position of sun, the shadow on the ground fooled me. To make it worst I had a very deep afternoon nap. The sort of sleep when you wake up you totally feel disoriented.

So that night I sleep as per my usual time around 9:30 - 10pm. But that was according to the clock but if it to following the clock in me, it was only around 8:30! And this could mean one thing- to wake as per my normal time 5:30-ish. I did indeed woke up at 5:30. 5:30 of my body clock and not the nation's clock. Which mean I woke up at 4:30 bloody am.

I forced myself to sleep again. Tossed and turned. I guessed Only (my cat) was pretty annoyed because I moved too much. Oh let me tell you about Only and his pantang on the bed- do not rock the bed when he's asleep, i really mean DO NOT, else he would give you this killer look, squinted eyes and stared atme like he was telling "you better stop that or else you'll be sorry." No he won't attack me. But he would jump off the bed and made this weird noise like he was cursing me in some sort of cat language.

In the end, I did fall asleep. But weird enough I had multiple dreams and kept waking up after each one ended. Few of the dreams were so vivid I could remember the details. Even today, 2 days after that night I still remember them. Then I updated my facebook status as follows:

"sleepless night last night..keep waking up and i dreamt a lot...saw mum and my sis having rojak..saw 2 naked boys showered in public..saw MAS plane..saw i was driving AirAsia bus but it could fly from CHC-KUL..and saw my dad...what a night..think my heart is already in Malaysia. I'm ready for the next big move"

Then it struck me, why didn't I found out what those dreams means? This is where the fun begins. I googled around and found something. For this part, I am going to decode the meaning of seeing my mum and my sister eating rojak in a restaurant.

Sister

To see your sister in your dream, symbolizes some aspect of your relationship with her, whether it one of sibling rivalry, nurturance, protectiveness, etc. Your sister may draw attention to your family role. Or the dream may also serve to remind you that someone in your waking life has characteristics similar to your sister. Alternatively, your sister may be a metaphor for a nun. In this case, she may represent some spiritual issues.

Mother
To see your mother in your dream, represents the nurturing aspect of your own character. Mothers offer shelter, comfort, life, guidance and protection. Some people may have problems freeing themselves from their mothers and are thus seeking their own individuality and development.

To dream that you are having a conversation with your mother, denotes a matter that has preoccupied your mind and you are not sure how to deal with it in your waking life. It indicates unresolved problems that need to be worked out with your mother.

To hear your mother call you in our dream, suggests that you have been negligent in your duties and responsibilities. You are pursuing down the wrong path

Eating
To dream that you are eating alone, signifies loss, loneliness, and depression. You may feel rejected, excluded, and cut off from social/family ties. Eating may be a replacement for companionship and provide a form of comfort. Alternatively, eating alone reflects independent needs. Also consider the pun, "what's eating you up?" in reference to anxiety that you may be feeling.

To dream that you are eating with others, signifies harmony, intimacy, merriness, prosperous undertakings, personal gain, and/or joyous spirits.

To dream that you are overeating or not eating enough, signifies a lack of spirituality and fulfillment in your waking life. Food can represent love, friendship, ambition, sex or pleasure in your life. Thus, food is a metaphor to fulfill and gratify your hunger for love and desires. If you are refusing to eat, then it indicates that you want to be more independent and not rely on others so much. If you dream that you are a picky eater, than it indicates that you are holding back something.If you are currently dieting in your waking life, then the dream may serve to compensate for the sustenance that you are lacking.

To dream that someone clears away the food before you finish eating, foretells that you will have problems and issues from those beneath you or dependent upon you.

Restaurant

To dream that you are in a restaurant, suggests that you are feeling overwhelmed by decisions and choices that you need to make in your life. Alternatively, it indicates that you are seeking for emotional nourishment outside of your social support system.

My Interpretation.

I did played a central role in the family when I was in Malaysia. I see myself like a router that connect several pc in the networking system. I seriously in need of guidance of an elder, I became lost each day not religiously but for the past several years despite what I had achieved in life I feel like I had no anchor. I live in New Zealand but I don't feel belong here and when I home for 8 months also I felt didn't belong there. It was an inner struggling that I tried to brush it off but it still bug me everyday. So the past few year there's this urge in me to settle in one place or one country, I don't want to go everywhere but gets me nowhere! Then when I decided to not renewing my stay in here (New Zealand) any longer, I felt more lost. Doubting myself will this be a best decision I ever made or will it (my return) be the biggest flop of my life. Thus, I seriously need guidance. Too late to do solat istikharah as I'm very determine to go home.

The dream interpretation of eating with other somehow give me a clear indication that I am about to make a right decision. I love the harmony in my family and close and intimate we are. One of the reason I go home because my parent are getting older and I want to be there for them. It's about time for me to repay them. Time for us to be family again, the complete six.

The meaning of restaurant sum it all, the personal struggle I have to face everyday. From career choice to everything, the need to decide poke me from all angles like facebook poke who have to click individually to poke back. Indeed I'm seeking emotional nourishment outside my social network in New Zealand- the quest that soon bring me back to Malaysia.

It was so clear why I had dream, I've been thinking about Malaysia in my subconscious mind